jan 12

Today things are off kilter for some reason but I'm not sure why. I feel like writing but I don't know what about. I feel lonesome..weird to say.
The bad thing about relying on someone and depending on someone is that when they don't feel like being there, they may not be. When you lift your weight away and realize you can't lean on them, it reminds you that you shouldn't rely on someone else so much. You shouldn't put too much on or rely on anyone but yourself.
Human minds are dangerous things when they trod off in their own directions, it can be exhausting dealing with a person that just won't stay on track. Its also exhausting being the person that can't stop thinking and drifting so I know both sides feel hopeless at times. Stress and trauma make things toxic and twisted. Its a mystery whether healing is really such a thing and if life ever really does move on. Does the bad get over or does bad get over everything else?...just venting