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although this place seems to be abandoned, I think I still want to write occassionally because I know I forget too easily to not give myself some place to look back on. Its probably good for me to go here.
Friday, the girls had their school parties and had lots of sweets to show for it. I had hid chocolates hearts in Mitch's front seat under his lunch and a big chocolate heart in his back seat. When I came out from Lili's class there was a navi system in my 4runner-very cool. So then we got home I gave Mitch the last gift I had gotten for him, a gift certificate for a massage at Massage Envy.
Saturday was Valentines day, Mitch had roses delivered for us. I had these beautiful pink (on the outside) red (on the inside) roses. The girls got three yellow roses each with a stuffed animal (that they each went gaga over), they were all very cool. Otherwise we were pretty lazy, low-key throughout the day then we had reservations for dinner at a japanese restaurant we hadn't tried yet, Fujiyama, which turned out to be incredibly delish. Sunday we were just lazy and stayed in from the cold.
Today, we went exploring a little to try out the nav system and found a ferry to cross to Anderson island, which we also discoverd has absolutely nothing on it but houses and a school. So we let the kids play on the playground for a little and then crossed back over to get back home.
Mitch took this whole week off, and the girls have one more day. Tomorrow we are going to Seattle to go to the Lion King, the broadway play. We're all excited and looking forward to it!

mommy power!

I found both the girls' dresses last night and did so at amazing prices! I went to all seven major retail stores in Lacey and picked them from two different stores to get them to somewhat match or at least coordinate together. I ended up with white and black polka dots. So today Ari's dress got taken to the seamstress cuz it was wide across her ribs and she needed shoes. Now I just wish I could find them some little sweaters or something cuz they're both strappy dresses.. I'm not having any luck. The couple I did find were ugly or ridiculously too much dinero.
I got them ruffley socks, and I found a cool aqua colored headband set that came with a couple other silver glittered ones, so I thought Mitch could wear that aqua color shirt. I wished I could come with something more fancy, but that ended up being all I could find in that color for him.. I hope they look nice when it all comes together. Its not even that I want them to be as fancy as last year, we're so grateful that they even all get to go to the Daddy Daughter Dance together. If Mitch had come home when he was expecting to, they wouldn't have even gotten to ;')

a lot of..

What to write about, what to write about.. funny how when things are well and content I feel less motivated to write. When things are hurting or disturbing, the words seem to flow easily.
The best thing about not feeling like writing is only that it seems like there's so much going that you don't want to miss a moment.
Mitch and I have had a lot of down time during his leave. Its confusing whether to want to just laze around and recover from the ordeal of being apart for seven months or to do our best to use our time together to do things, go places or even get little projects done. Of course we've done of a lot of the down time, and a little of the rest. We've watched SO MANY movies, and eatten out way too much. We realize that should start to dwindle after he feels more like he's gotten enough of things he was missing. I told him I feel bad that I haven't cooked as much as was while he was gone, but that its his fault that I'm too tired and distracted to want to cook. Maybe when he starts working again we'll get back into a more realistic routine, as opposed to home-a-tos ..ha!
Then to top things off I got a tummy bug that ruined the last couple of me being able to do much standing (cuz it hurt so bad) and meant a lot of me sleeping... I think I'm feeling better though.

jan 12

Today things are off kilter for some reason but I'm not sure why. I feel like writing but I don't know what about. I feel lonesome..weird to say.
The bad thing about relying on someone and depending on someone is that when they don't feel like being there, they may not be. When you lift your weight away and realize you can't lean on them, it reminds you that you shouldn't rely on someone else so much. You shouldn't put too much on or rely on anyone but yourself.
Human minds are dangerous things when they trod off in their own directions, it can be exhausting dealing with a person that just won't stay on track. Its also exhausting being the person that can't stop thinking and drifting so I know both sides feel hopeless at times. Stress and trauma make things toxic and twisted. Its a mystery whether healing is really such a thing and if life ever really does move on. Does the bad get over or does bad get over everything else?...just venting

feet finally touch the ground

Mitch and I have been glued to eachother since he got home. It was such a high to have him back home that we couldn't sleep for the past two nights. We looked exhausted, couldn't stay more than a few inches apart, and couldn't get over that we're finallyback together. He went to the base this morning but was back by noon. Today we had our very first time alone with the girls at school, since Lili started Kindergarten while he was gone. It was so momentus. We didn't do anything earthshattering, but it still felt as exciting as a date. We got his plate stickers, got Starbucks, went to a bike shop and a hardware store..weird thing was they were all my ideas. Then we went home and relaxed for about 45 minutes because I had Daisy Scouts to go to today with LiLi. It was nice to have his help in getting Ari & Myia home and getting to walk in the meeting on time for once. When Lili and I got home Mitch had done a lot of straightening and tidying up, which was so nice to have had the help.
I made a pretty filling dinner and he and I had shared a wine cooler, so he got sleepy and conked out. I fell asleep for a few minutes, but then woke up because I knew I needed to put the girls to bed and now feel wide awake..again. Oh well. At least I got to write a little.
Nice day, loved January 7th.

maybe I'll write more when I stop flippin out!

NO JOKE! My husband is home! I say he's home early but in reality he was actually there for longer than he should have been because he had bypassed some training ahd had actually gotten there early.
He surprised me and actually showed up at our front door!! He got here about 2:30 and we went and got the girls from school at 3:00. I couldn't wait to see their faces!
Liana got a confused looking surprised...


Ari almost lost it!

This was a day I hope I never forget. I could not believe it was real even when it was actually happening, and ever since he got here I can't take my eyes off him. I just can't believe he's really here...

the NEW YEAR!

I surprised the girls and decorated a little for New Years Eve. They wore the hat and beads they asked for all evening. We had a fun dinner and they blew their noisemakers everytime another time zone hit midnight. By the time we finally had ours (was ours the last in the world or something??) I was thankful it was finally our time. They had fun and were way too excited! It was cool and it kept my spirits up. At midnight, yes they stayed up, we watched the fireworks on tv from the Space Needle in Seattle and called Mitch. He heard the girls' noisemakers and was laughing, he couldn't really talk so he gave me a bunch of kisses and told me Happy New Year, which I really appreciated it, considering he was probably surrounded by his fellow assoicates. It was pretty good, for being apart.
All I know is January..February..that's all I think about. I cannot wait for him to come home!